*2 month later
It’s been 2 months and I can’t believe my brother Stan is gone. I feel so lost without him, who am I going to talk to now? Who’s going to give me the wise advice he used to give me?
I wish I could bring him back, we still had so much to talk about.
My phone rings…
“Hello?” I answer.
“Hey babes! It’s Barbie!” A cute, thin, little voice exclaims.
“Oh my god! Barbara is that you?” I exclaim with excitement.
“Yea hun, how are you?” She asks.
“Well just pulling through you know?” I tell her.
“I heard I’m sorry love.” She tries to comfort me.
“Where you at though? Are you in Miami still?” I ask.
Barbara is an aspiring female rapper, but she’s also a professional dancer. I been helping her with all her promotions, graphics and I also, do some of her management from time to time. But since she’s been in Miami promoting her new mixtape and with the loss of my brother I haven’t had time to reach out to her.
Did I mention that Barbara dated Wayne? Well, she’s Wayne ex-girlfriend before he got with the girl he’s with now.
“Yeah boo, I’m out here doing a lot of crazy stuff” She answers.
There’s a short pause and I ask, “Have you seen Wayne?”
She sighs, “No, I rather not bump into him for now. Are you talking to him still?”
I can’t lie to her.
“Yeah…” I tell her.
“That’s cool love, as long as he doesn’t hurt you or I’ll have a little chat with him” She says and laughs.
“You’re silly” I say and laugh.
“Well baby, I just called to check in on you! I have some dope tracks I want you to listen to first as always. I’ll be sending that to you later today and I’ll text ya!” She says with joy.
“Of course! I’m excited!” I exclaim with joy.
“Okay talk to you later sweetie!” She says with her sweet voice.
“Bye barb, love ya” I tell her.
“Love ya back” she hangs up.
She’s the only one I have left who understands me as much as my brother did. I’m so happy she’s back in touch with me.
“Yo! The track you did 2 months ago is all over the internet man! And people are going nuts!” Mack yells out as he enters the studio.
“Seriously? I don’t like how it came out to be honest,” I tell him.
“Well people love it bro!” Mack assures me.
Has Anne heard the song? Shit. She probably has and if she hasn’t she most likely will soon.
My iphone rings…
“Yo!” I answer.
“Wayne, I have set you for LA in 3 days you’ll be doing a video shoot.” Cortez, my manager tells me.
“Yeah for sure man, just get everything ready I’ll be there.” I tell him.
“Alright man,” He hangs up.
“What happened?” Mack asked.
“None just Tez saying we gotta go shoot a video in LA this week” I respond as I sit down.
“Oh yeah! I forgot to mention that!” Mack exclaims as he puts his hand over his head.
“It’s cool” I tell him.
“So this track dude is hot!” Mack insists.
“I guess.” I try to agree.
My Blackberry vibrates…
It’s Dana… Dam…
She’s probably in Miami…
Me: Hey beautiful, where you at?
Dana: Where you think ;)
Me: Sweet, see you tonight?
Dana: Sure, I can stop by. Your place?
Me: Yeah, I’ll let you know.
Dana: Okay xo!
“Let me hear it again,” I tell Mike as the song I just recorded ends.
These two months have been so cold for me and Wayne. He’s been much more distant than before, it breaks my heart. He brings girls home as if I’m not even here.
I don’t want to upset him more than he already is. Maybe I should just pack my things and go…
Maybe I should try to work things out…
I hear the service lady call my name…
“Yes Lola?” I respond.
“Ma’am Ms. Flores is here to see you.” She tells me as I enter the living room.
“Bring her over here please, thank you,” I command her.
“Yes ma’am” She obeys.
I take a sit on the couch. I wonder what Marisa needs. She’s Wayne’s stylist, I bet she’s here for some clothes or something.
“Hey girl!” Marisa greets me.
“Hey lovely, what happened?” I ask I greet her with a hug.
“Wayne sent me over to pack some of the new stuff that arrived for LA, we’ll be leaving in 2 days.” Marisa informs me.
“I wasn’t aware, Wayne didn’t tell me anything.” I tell her.
“We just got told a few hours ago so I imagine Wayne would tell you later anyway.” She assures me.
“Well all the new stuff Wayne has is in the other side of the house in his lobby area, let’s go check it out.” I tell Marisa as I signal her to follow me.
As we get to the other side of the house and make our way into the room where Wayne puts all his new stuff Marisa asks,
“You okay? You look tired?”
“Yeah, I’m fine, you know in Wayne’s world sleep doesn’t exist.” I tell her in a joking matter.
She laughs, “Very true!”
“Well these are all the new merchandise he has received,” I point to about 6 boxes on the floor.
“Awesome!” She exclaims as she opens up one of the boxes.
“Well I should pack too!” I tell her as I make my way out, “This is your house.”
“Thanks D!” She says as she keeps opening the boxes.
I head to other side of the house where our room is located. As I enter our room, I noticed I left my phone on the bed. I have 3 missed calls from Wayne.
I wonder what happened…I dial….
“Why haven’t you answered your phone?” He asks immediately.
“Sorry I left it in the room, while I went to greet Marisa.” I respond.
“She’s there?” Wayne asks.
“Yeah, she’s packing your new stuff.” I inform him.
“Okay, well that’s all I wanted to tell you.” He tells me relieved.
“Oh…okay…” I say.
There’s a silent pause.
I hear all the guys in the background.
“Are you coming home right now? Or until morning?” I ask.
“I’ll be there in the morning.” He responds immediately, “Pack your stuff, I’ll see you later.”
“Okay, love you” I say hopeful.
“Love you too love.” He hangs up.
“Love you too love” I got this hot, rush from my throat to my stomach. I love to hear him say that.
It had been awhile since he said that.
My email is going crazy, all my social sites are going ballistic!
“Are you dear anne?”
“This song is for you!”
“I’m jealous! He wrote this for you!”
What are these people talking about?
My phone rings…
“Annneeeeeeeee!!!” Vanessa shouts over the phone with such excitement.
“Wow! What the fuck bitch?” I exclaim in a joking matter.
“Don’t tell me you haven’t heard the song?!” She asks anxiously.
“What song? Oh my god, everyone on the dam internet is messaging me about some song” I tell her annoyed.
“Oh gosh girl! Get on dam Youtube and look up Dear Anne, NOW!” she commands, “Call me after you hear it!”
She hangs up.
I sign on to Youtube and search “Dear Anne”
I see titles that read, “NEW SONG – DEAR ANNE by LIL WAYNE”
What is this? I’m suddenly nervous… my hands get shaky, I can hardly control the mouse…
I click on the first video….
[ song plays ]
My heart drops… I start to loose my breath… Is this really for me?
My phone rings, I jump up scared…
“Hello?” I answered worried.
“Did I scared you?” Vanessa asks.
“No, you just caught me off guard.” I respond relieved.
“Okay.. tell me you heard it?” She asks anxiously.
“I did…” I answer.
“Well?” She asks impatiently.
“Well what? It’s just a song, he made. There’s no way that’s me. You know how many Anne’s he probably knows?” I tell her trying to avoid reality.
“You must be in the worst denial of your life,” She says disappointed since she didn’t get the response she wanted.
“Let me leave you alone, so you can replay that bitch over and over until it makes sense in your little head that everything he says relates to YOU! And only You!” she affirms.
“You’re insane!” I exclaim with a nervous laugh.
“Bye ANNE!” She yells out and hangs up.
I replay the song… this can not be true.
“Hey love” I tell Dana as she answers her phone.
“Hey baby!” She responds excited.
“Come through,” I tell her, as I enter my condo in the Setai Hotel.
“Your house?” She asks.
“Nah, my condo, the setai” I confirm.
“Okay I’ll be up there in a few minutes,” She confirms.
“Cool,” I hang up.
As I get comfortable, I grab a smoke and head out to the balcony. Wanting to text Anne but fuck it I got Dana coming over right now.
I hear a knock on the door…. it must be Dana…